I noticed a point within myself today as I was reading an article/document that Sunette had posted – http://desteni.co.za/intro-forum/viewtopic.php?f=36&t=1631&p=7922#p7922 about “Self Change”.
The article was looking at the point of Change from the perspective of “Material Change” and how one attempt to change and define change within and through change in ones environment as a result of /directly related to money where one would in a way “Buy” change.
So the point that came up within me is the point of how I often immediately go to the point of money as an indication of my self change, or how I have changed, or how to change. I understand that I cannot simply just change from an external perspective but that actual change must be actual change, as a change that is both internal and external. I am also aware of the Process of doing this from the perspective of what is required to assist and support self with internal self change and also how to actually bring this/walk this live this into ones physical reality so that the change exist both internally and externally as an actual manifested change of as self completely.
I will also say that at the moment I am still in the process of Learning how to in fact do this, though I am aware of different aspects of how this works and have also been involved in actually doing this for myself for the last 4 years, though I realize I am still developing and understanding the basic fundamental points of this process in terms of how to actually apply and live this as myself.
So the point I noticed within me today is that I was tending to go more to an “out-there” approach to change a little quickly in by simply for example looking at “how can I make lots of money” as then this being an indication (if I could do this) that I have changed. I see that I was “jumping a bit” And I see that I must actually assist and support myself to effectively establish this point of self change in writing first, where in I actually explore much more thoroughly my inner reality of self because in a way I see that I was trying to change my external reality without actually walking the internal networks and constructs existent inside of me that are still operating, functioning, controlling and directing myself and my experience and my world. So yes basically seeing the vastness of my inner reality that I was not “taking on” so to speak, and thus require to direct myself within taking on my “internal reality” more specifically and thoroughly so as to “balance out” my application of attempting to change me.
So just a point I noticed, realized today in reading sunettes article that I thought Id share.
So to place it simplistically in the words of a cave man…
Me write more.
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