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Self Forgiveness on “Submissiveness in The Work Force.”

 

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hesitate in the moment when “talking about snow removal” came up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear mentioning the “snow removal point” to “X”, because I had formed a belief within myself that initially he was not going to do it, and then eventually that I would end up doing it with “Y” or someone else, where in my mind I created an idea that “I would not like it” and that I was “just ‘X’s’s  slave” and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create elaborate and complex ideas within my mind that are NOT the case, instead of simply communicating to ‘X’ or communicating in general rather than forming ideas within my own mind.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear communicating about snow removal with ‘X’.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to form an idea about “how I am supposed to communicate about business with ‘X’”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear communicating about Business with ‘X’, and I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to form an idea about “how to communicate about business” and within this actually fear communicating about business due to the fear I created around the idea I formed about this, particularly when it comes to discussing or communicating about money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am not very good at communicating about money or dealing with money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take a “passive role” when it comes to business and money where in I actually place myself within a submissive point and “wait for things to happen”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place myself within a submissive position within business due to believing that I am inferior in the point of business and also in the point of money and generating money, and therefore I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am inferior when it comes to dealing with money and making business transactions in relation to money, and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to “play the role” of someone where in I actually “act out” my belief of myself as bad with money, through how I participate in conversations around this point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold back when it comes to communicating about money and business and making important decisions, due to my belief that “I would just get in the way” and that I am doing everyone a favour by “keeping quiet” and “Keeping Submissive”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regret not communicating to Jason about doing snow removal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I were to communicate about the point of snow removal with Jason that I would in fact inhibit the point or somehow “make it worse”

I forgive myself for not trusting myself within communicating effectively about business and money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand back within my environment due to my accepted and allowed belief that others know better and that I would learn more if I keep quite, observe, and be patient.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to remain submissive within my environment because I do not know how my actions would reverberate within my world and affect my immediate environment or how people would respond to me, and thus rather than actually test this as  a point of assisting and supporting myself to break my pre-programmed design as submissiveness, I simply remained within my pre-programming as submissive because “I know how people will respond” and thus I can in a way Trust this.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to “fall-back” on my pre-programming to direct my life for me instead of ME taking responsibility for myself within this world and actually directing myself to become effective within this reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in nervousness when communicating about snow removal with ‘X’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear working with ‘X’ in the winter due to the Idea that I formed about “How ‘X’ Does Business” and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have assumed how Jason does business, or come to a conclusion within myself how ‘X’does business, and within this resist speaking with Jason about business due to not wanting to face this Idea that I have created about how he does business and within this never actually “break the ice”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that to speak about business is rude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear making a mistake about speaking or communicating about business due to fear of losing the presentation of myself that I am attempting to project which is “the suave businessman” and so thus never actually engage in Business Discussions due to the fear of the truth of me being revealed in that “I am not so certain and confident and strong within business” that I would like to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I must lie to be a good business man

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that communicating about specific details with regards to price and other plans is “not my business” and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to the “apparent rules of business” even within this being a point that does NOT support me to become a more effective business man within this world, and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear ruffling other peoples feathers and allow this to influence me within my moment to moment interaction / participation as a Businessman within this world.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jason would take advantage of me if I were to “work for him” during the winter.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold back communicating about my price range to ‘X’ because then he would see that there is not a business opportunity to be had and thus would be “let down” and so I held back communicating about the specifics due to “not wanting to make him feel bad within himself”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that “I must have it all figured out” and so within this do not communicate “In the moment” about business as I want to have a script and a plan first, and thus I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within believing that I must know what to say, so that I can influence people so that my business will be successful.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I must “influence” people through manipulating them through how I communicate and interact with them, so that my business will be successful, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to “stick to this methodology” instead of being more open and communicative with beings about business.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I must “stay under Jason’s wing”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Jason is more effective than me within this world where in I do not give myself much credit at all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see and define myself as “X’s employee” where in I, in a way “give up my directive principle” within the point of business and abdicate this to Jason, instead of standing Here Equal to ‘X’, and no more accepting and allowing myself to be Dependant on ‘X’, but that I Stand Here Equal to ‘X’.

I forgive myself for not standing Equal to ‘X’ from the perspective of realizing that I am being Just like him, and we are both in this system, and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit how much money I am able to make to “the skills I have” where in I have formed an IDEA about how much money I am able to make based on my current skill set, instead of simply letting this go and pushing the point of effective money generation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to “take-shit” from ‘Z’ due to believing that he and ‘X’ were “Old Friends” and that I must “take my place” within the pecking order.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to “play by the rules” of my accepted and allowed programming of “how I see things should work” where in I will take a submissive role to other employees who are older than me, and believe it is more my place to do what others say, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this current system to simply play-out as it always has, and also my world to remain as it always has through by “playing by the rules”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to “Hold Myself Back” instead of pushing myself full force to become a force within this world and this system, and become a force to be reckoned with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to “play by the rules” of energy as emotions and feelings, where in I stick to the rules of energy as emotions and feelings particularly within the work place, and thus within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to simply always exist in a position to “take orders” instead of taking Directive Point on things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to just “do what I am told” and “do the minimum” within the belief that “there is nothing I can do” and so what is the point of pushing myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see myself as incapable of being an effective businessman.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as polarity relationships as Boss who is God and has all the power and employee who is slave and has no power.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to simply accept this pattern as who I am instead of breaking through this pattern and no more accepting and allowing myself to define myself and believe myself to be who I am as has been created through and as this pattern, because how do I really know who I am if I have always stood in a position of slavery and not had the opportunity to apply myself equally within the workplace.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I must be good at landscaping in order to be successful within it, and within this I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to suppress other skills I have such as communication and creativity to name 2 , instead of using ALL of myself within and as self direction where in I expand me within my creative business enterprises.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my ability to learn and expand to the skills that I have already acquired and what I have already done,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as a boss who sees his employees as “less than” and within this not ever see them as anything other than slaves to keep my business going.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as a boss who keeps his employees hostage because I am afraid of one or some of them challenging me within my position and thus never actually give them an opportunity of self empowerment to stand and function equal to and one with me within my ability and effectiveness. This all is a point of Jealousy and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become possessed with Jealousy towards those who I work with and due to this jealousy of them perhaps being better than me, I keep them in a disempowered position so that I can remain in power as made possible through and how the system is set up and function.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear doing business with an open deck out of fear of being manipulated or swindled out of money. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to never help anyone due to believing that I will just get scammed. And as a result of this idea/belief I hold my cards very close to my cheast.

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Writing Yourself To Freedom – How this has Supported Me.

Since I started participating with Desteni, I have written extensively. This began initially on the forums where I would ask questions and communicate with those on the forums. It was there on the forums where I started to develop my writing ability.

My specialty was certainly not writing, though I enjoyed writing and before desteni would also write in a journal as I found the process of writing to be quite creative similar to how doing art work is.

So eventually the point of “Writing Yourself to Freedom” was introduced and it was likely around this time as well that we started opening up blogs and blogging about our experiences.

I remember being amazed as I would write about my life as I never did this before where I would simply write about my past and my experience and also just explore various different ways of writing and even simply pushing myself to blog about what I was experiencing in any given moment. Through this I started to develop the ability to investigate myself and explore myself in writing. Yes I had been busy doing this already but with the point of “Writing Yourself to Freedom” and in general the focus on writing with Desteni, I began to expand this point for myself and enjoyed the experience of doing so.

I became more effective in writing through writing myself to freedom than I did in 4 years of college – And this I found to be quite fascinating. Of course my history of writing supported me in what I was now doing with writing and participating with Desteni, but I actually started to experience myself expanding in my writing and even become better at spelling and more free and effective in my writing for the first time in a long time. One of the central points I see as to why my writing application in participation with Desteni was effective and supportive and expansive, is because “Writing Yourself to Freedom”  is/was not so regimented and controlled like you find in college or university where you ‘must’ follow the rules and make the careful correct arguments about a selected topic. This is cool also, though what I found is that with Desteni it was like all the shackles where let off, and the point was simple. WRITE! It was not about being perfect or correct and this allowed me to let go of self judgement in relation to my writing and just let the words flow. There was not, “this is what you are supposed to do, or have to do”, though there Were many examples of writing to take as a guideline if you required.

I mean writing with Desteni and “Writing Yourself to Freedom” was/is more flowing where I did not have to try to make everything perfect and correct but that I could just write and express myself and it was much more free flowing. Strangely enough, the structure and grammer and spelling and things like this eventually just started to develop, though still much work to do here on this point for myself to become effective with the specifics of writing and the proper way of writing which is simply just another aspect and point to develop, and not “the only point” being considered acceptable which is what I found in school.

So there is not only one way to “Write Yourself to Freedom” it really encompass everything. At least that is how I categorize the “Writing Yourself to Freedom” point. Is that it is basically “Everything” we are doing with Desteni, particularly because desteni is very much internet based so even learning to link effectively and do vlogs and tagging and descriptions for videos and chatting and forums and answering e-mails and ratings – All this is “Writing Yourself to Freedom” in a way as it is all tools which develop one effectively so that we become effective in the necessary points which eventually will be essential in the bringing forth of the Equal Money System which is in one way an ultimate point of Actual Freedom for all and then when the Equal Money System is Implemented we will have practically Written Ourselves to Freedom.

So those are just a few points related to my experience of writing myself freedom with Desteni. I write nearly everyday. It is rare that there is a day that I do not write. Sometimes on paper with a pen, sometimes on the computer. Sometimes a blog, or an insight, or a question, or self forgiveness, or reporting on world events, or an e-mail, or observations, anything and all things.

This point has even assisted me in becoming more effective in my daily life where I used to experience myself as limited in my writing where now I see that writing is no more holding me back like how I previously experienced myself in relation to it but has become a point that I am more confident in. Even though I do see still lots of room for improvement and development, I have much more trust in my ability to write as a point which is now to-my-advantage than my disadvantage, and this has been another cool aspect of the “Writing Yourself to Freedom” point with Desteni. That when I steady my hand getting ready to jot down some notes or take a phone message for someone, or for that matter even text my boss, or co-workers about work related stuff that I am confident in my ability and now actually Enjoy these scenarios instead of dreading them or trying to avoid them like before. Now I actually even look for these moments/opportunities as I see I am much more effective in my written communication than before and it has now become a point which make my participation in this world more effective and stronger. Thus I would recommend to everyone to give “Writing Yourself To Freedom” a shot.

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